I seem to have become transparant.  My dad listens to what I say and nodds in all the appropriate places, but doenst seem to realise im there anymore.  Mum only pays attention to me when shes screaming at me in her drunken stupour or is drunk and dancing round the ’i fakely care about how you are’ scenario.  I sent a bitter email today telling the boy that i couldnt trust him again and didnt want to speak to him and he even replied.  This never happens.  The letter consisted of him taking full responsibility but saying his gf was more important than friendship.  He ended the letter with ’so this is au revoir,’ and then proceeded to delete me off facebook friends.  Thats stung a bit because ive been confirmed as meaning nothing and having been a mug for wasting 12 years of my life being friends.  He took the power out of my hands because he was been sick of being shouted at for less than a week, and wanted to make someone else feel like total shit.

What a wonderful life i sometimes lead.